i wanted to skip modern dance today,but after jan found me at the staff room,he persuaded me to go,so i jus go lor. b4 tat i ran out of sch to try find vivien(with some "help" from dylan),she was walkin to the opposite bustop. so i asked her to wait 4 me. then we faster went back sch n i went for my cca.nth much,jus some new stepes and 1new guy joining. hes quite slow and a bit"nerdy". after my dance,which is about 5+,i called vien n found out shes at home.hm.i wonder wad she've been doin when im in dance o.O. so i walked to 962bustop. tried to find sum1,but couldnt.
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after this period of being alone, i'd realise too late, how much i was in love with you back then, and still am. a pity that i didnt express it enough to you. i do want to woo you again, but i dont know if it's something i've done or didnt do/try enough, as it seems like you're done with us. maybe it was since a long time back and its just me being silly, and that's okay. the only difference between now and when we broke up is probably just the acceptance that brooding wont bring you back. one of the reasons i wanted the break up was for you to be independent, and i'm really proud that you're making tremendous progress, like doing things that interests you, making new connections, achieving your own goals. most importantly, you seem happy. and i can make do with that. they say time heals, but fuck that. i will still love you madly everyday. i will miss you like crazy every passing moment. i will regret the chances i threw, and not letting you know how much i...
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